Our Health Depends on Us (continued, by Dr. Fung Lee)
Other than physiological factors, we have to overcome the sickness demon. We also have to deal with the psychological aspects such smiling, not getting angry and being optimistic besides learning how to relax – which is one of the biggest reasons I am able to subdue my ailment over the years.
Learning to smile is a special kind of homework. Because I know when smiling, especially laughing, our cells are relaxed. When the cells are totally relaxed, they are plump and sleek with full energy that is sufficient to cope with external aggression. When first learning to smile, I didn’t really want to smile but force myself to have a smiling face. However, as time passes, our mind will naturally cooperate and we will be genuinely happy.
After being diagnosed with cancer, learning to smile became one of my daily assignments. One time, a patient, who was frowning deeply, came to me. I saw that she was very melancholic. Therefore, I asked the little girl who accompanied the mother, “Is your mother ticklish?” “Yes!”, she replied. I told her quietly, “every time when your mother lays in bed, just tickle her.” Consequently, the mother gradually loosened up her frown after laughing hard once everyday.
Learning not to be angry is one of the hardest homework assignments. Due to my straightforward and righteous personality, whenever I see unreasonable or unfair matters, my spirit of defending someone against injustice rises. Ever since I realized that the definition of being angry is to punish myself when I see others’ mistakes, I really tried hard to practice this. However, engrained habits are rather hard to change. This process took four to five years before I saw any result. In the beginning, when others picked on me, I will respond instantly but regret immediately. After awhile when others picked on me again, I would see myself almost getting mad, but then I would escape to where no one can pick on me. By then I would adjust my emotions. Eventually, after awhile I was able to suppress my temper without escaping the situation. However, I still think to myself, “You are so pitiable” in order to balance my emotions. Up to now, I am able to see nothing and maintain my smiles.
Having the positive attitude towards an illness has the greatest influence on treatment. During the early stage of my cancer, because of the on going setbacks, I had no faith towards the future or my life, which had negative influence on the treatments. Once I have regained faith towards life and the future, and although I didn’t receive any treatments, my health recovered gradually. Therefore, when my health was improving, the most delightful for me to do is to provide encouragement to cancer patients besides my profession. Whenever there were cancer patients who thought that it’s the end of the world and were feeling down, they were referred to me. Often they will ask a lot of questions and have doubts. When they see my being a real life example standing right in front of them joyfully and lively, their faith and confidence are easily re-established. Patients who came in my office with their heads down and a sad face could end up walking out with joyful smiles and with their heads up. What I have done is not miracles. I just showed them hope and helped them turn from being pessimistic to optimistic.
Even when the cancer patients come to see me, I would say “Congratulations for having cancer!” When they hear that, they think it is rather odd. I explained, “If you do not have cancer, how can you change your eating habits? How can you start exercising? And how can you learn to smile? Furthermore, from today onwards, your life will improve everyday and its quality will be better and better daily. So, isn’t it something worthy congratulating?” When they heard that, they feel better about their conditions.
When the patient’s emotions have settled down and are about to leave, I congratulate them once more. They feel even more bewildered hearing it again since they’ve heard it once. “You have congratulated me once, what else is worth of congratulating again? I would reply, “I have passed to you my thirty years of experience in fighting cancer and health tips to you all at once, so shouldn’t this be something worthy of congratulations?” From there, they leave feeling fulfilled and satisfied.
If we have a positive attitude in dealing with situations in our life, everything will turn out to be wonderful. If we do the opposite and are pessimistic in our thinking, all matters will be terrible. For example, my husband would disconnect the phone at home for my own good, so that I would not answer a whole bunch of phone calls after work. Although it seems a bit inconvenient for me, yet from another point of view, I was able to use the time for doing yoga, exercising quietly. Isn’t this more helpful for my health? Additionally, if there are any important matters, people can call me at the office the next day. Why should I worry?
Relaxing seems easy. In actuality, it’s the most difficult thing to do because being relaxed must start from the mind. Only when our mind is genuinely relaxed, our cells could then relax. Besides, in order for the mind to be relaxed, we must put down much of our value systems of the mundane world including fame, self-benefits, emotions and so on. My method is to start from cleaning up the drawers, and throwing away things that I have not used for a long time. Donate and let go of all things, including clothes and objects extending to our personal relationships with others. Therefore, when living simply and plainly, we will become very relaxed.
Back then the doctor told me that I only had six months to live. Until today, I think I have “gained additional 30 years”. What’s the reason? Smiling, not getting angry, looking at matters positively, and learning to relax are the essential dharma treasures!